You are never going to make it alone. You might as well face the fact. Either you are going to get God's total help, or your life at the end will prove to be just one more tragic failure in the countless, faceless passing billions of mortal flesh. The only way to get God's help is to give Him everything you have: life, heart, mind, strength, and goods. That's His price, and He does not haggle. Take it or leave it. It would still be a bargain at a million times the price. What you give at very best is actually nothing. It is just a poor little token of your love and thanksgiving, worthless in itself, like the crumpled love-offering of a small child, but it has great value and meaning to God. As long as it is EVERYTHING you have, He will accept it in love. You might as well give it, and reap eternally for it. In a few years it will all be gone anyway, and so will you with it.